actually felt like this before (oh well, it has been 3 times)..... I know that
some of you could not just feel the pain because your
blessed. Your lovelife is so
straightforward and
happy because
your love interest has mutual feelings.
So, to tell you what, it
hurts.... a lot..... Therefore, I sometimes refer to Haibara's feelings and love situation and put it into mine because they are similar.
You just sometimes think that you were the girl whom they admire and tend to get jealousy and hatred. [s]Even I had moved on from this kind of love and found a new love interest, it is still hopeless because that guy just does not notice me no matter how close we are. But I just think of his happiness.[/s]
Some of you, [s](mostly ShinRan fans),[/s] says this :
"Shinichi will definitely just become himself again and confess to Ran and Haibara will just find another person" Don't you see? It is so
predictible. Okay,
let's just face it, Shinichi will
definitely end up with Ran but you
can't just say that Haibara will find another guy....(Well, DC is a mystery with twists and turns, so who knows?)
It isn't
easy to just let go of someone whom you love and find another.
It takes time. [s]As for me, it took 1 and a quarter year to bear with the whole pain and move on.... (Well, unfortunately my new love interest just sees me as a friend
)[/s]
So since Conan is [glow=red,2,300]awesome[/glow] and
I do not think you can find someone like that and judging Haibara's character, it will took quite a long time for her to move on. Love is just sometimes
painful, you are
blessed if your lovelife is just so straightforward.
Just imagine that you are in Haibara's shoes:
A guy whom you first thought that he was the right one for you, and you are just so happy that you had fallen in love. Not only that, that guy is so caring towards you that you feel that he feels the same way as you too and he's awesome. But then, just then, you eventually found out that he likes another girl. Your dream just burst into flames and only leaves ashes. Even though you do not know this girl, you already hated her and the moment you heard her name, first saw her, met her, you just hated her that you want to curse her to fall into hell for enternity despite that she is actually a nice person. You just glare and ignore her for no reason as you spent nights thinking and crying about how you suffered such a hopeless love. You get jealous the moment she interacts with the guy whom you love and how he talks about her to you a lot. And this goes on for many days...... As you saw how she is kind you suddenly wants to apologise for being rude to her and you just want to find them happiness even if your heart is bleeding.(If she's nice) As you spent your alone time thinking about letting him go, you just can't........You see people? It is just
so painful and
you could not imagine how surrowful you are if you had not experienced this before.
So what if Ran has to wait for him? Think about it, you just wanted to spend time crying and waiting for a guy whose suddenly gone that hasn't even confess to you. If that person was your boyfriend you could wait. But a guy whose relationship with you is just friendship?
(Come on, THEY ARE NOT DATING) Who knows if he has already someone?
Therefore, if you
never knew that Conan is Shinichi, somehow, if you love him, you should be happy for him and just
stop hurting yourself. Since he likes cases and now he goes to other countries to solve some,and the most important thing is that he is safe when he is missing. You must think that he is happy doing what he loves the most and stop waiting for him. Like in an episode where Conan could not bare Ran's depression, he sometimes wish that she was not in love with him.
So, by acting that way even though that it is
faithful, it just an
infatuation to me because you
can't seem to understand that you have to
sacrifice for one's happiness but people are just way selfish. It is just way to MMI (me, myself and I) .
In my opinion, thinking something like "
I am dying here waiting for you, please come back to me." is just
pure childish crush. [s](Srry if you think I'm very emotional)[/s]
Love is about thinking about a person more than yourself.
[glow=red,2,300]Instead of [/glow] thinking how much it hurts you,
why didn't you think about how he is safe? When he calls you instead of asking if he is alright and doing fine in his cases, why do you complain to him and keep on reminding him to come back? Why? As for the one-sided love, it is
unfair (life is unfair, get use to it)and it
hurts but you just
have to let go and keep thinking of his happiness.
The reason why I know about this is because me experiencing a one-sided love three times (the third is currently) made me understand more about feelings and how to be selfless. That is the main reason why I just support ConanXAi because I can just refer to it.
) 
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